Love Hurts

To live life in a sudden change and shocking news is the hardest process to go through. I can’t imagine that few hours ago she was my girl and in few hours later she was someone else property.

I was kissing you on your forehead, your cheek, your hand, let you touch my face and say ‘I Love You’ deeply while looking into your eyes, watch you walk home to your doorsteps and felt the pain of separation every time I press the gas, disappearing you from my eyes. Reply your text messages every moment you need me, called you and wish you goodnight, with hugs and kisses, comfort and convinced you so much that my love for you is true. What I didn’t know is that you actually seeing someone else behind all that..

I begin to ask myself, did I cheat on her for another woman? Did I ignore her so much? Haven’t I given her all the attention she needs? Haven’t I spoiled her with all the things she wanted? And continuously asking myself a thousands question of what went wrong?

With a sudden shocking news of a new ‘Wonder Boy’ she told me its over, next morning she started to change everything. Her messengers profile pictures with him, her hand phone wallpapers, her blogs, everything that has got to do with the wonder boy. Come On!!~~! What do you think I have no feelings at all?? Do you have a heart of a stone?? That hurts me like hell!

Whats worst is that she wanted to be good friends which I can agree why. Helping her in terms of transportation around as the Wonder Boy is not in town until ‘certain month’ which I volunteer because I still cant accept the fact that there is no longer feelings attached and because I missed her so much. But is it necessary to show the love conversation on the phone right at my face, unnecessary online with the wonder boy while on a moving vehicle knowing I was beside her, showing the bond and connections they have, laughing and flirting together. (ARRGHH!@!)
In such a short period, it was just less than a week of breakup…and I have to deal with all this? Am I so evil that I deserve to be treated like this? Have you no love for me even at all to at least not hurt me this way?

Because i love her so much...to deal with the pain is like cutting myself and healing it back again, and continue cutting and healing...and so on..damn it HURTS~!!!

Oh Love Hurts like F hell man~!!!!

Me, Myself and I - Part I

Greetings,
….to myself and to any of you who is reading...

Oh and all of a sudden I am blogging? Whats up with this man?

I hardly had the time to blog about whatever, which makes me not a regular blogger…also makes me not a pro blogger…and also makes me what I am. I’m looking at it as my expressions, reflect on life and my point of view over things around me from before, now and after.

I sounded abit intense..whats with the “Seriousness” ?

Huh, so am I actually a comedian? Well, yes I am..and infact..i can be more than a comedian at times which is above senseless (what? Who is this guy?)
Possibly to those who never actually get acquainted with me will be surprised that I am rather sensitive, emotional, sentimental and complicated person. Both the "Yin and Yang" if I must say, like in response to your endless pain, you realize that everything around is amusing and blissful, that when you are feeling great and happy you tend to think of those who is in pain and living a hard life.

Why must I Blog? zzz..just keep it to myself and thats it. I might end up embarrassing myself talking crap and stuff…geezz..

I have lost the biggest and deepest LOVE in mylife…
Hoping that spending part of my time here would minimize the pain and possibly guide me out of the never-ending soreness. (In what way?)
I guess, loves knows not its own depth until the hour of separation…
Everyone changes something in life the very time they lost their most valuable possessions, in physically, mentally or emotionally.

I only take pride for myself, so don’t be expecting something extraordinary here. I am just another blogger…who actually enjoys reading about himself.